I feel led by Holy Spirit to begin my first blog writing about how I first began seeing in the Spirit.
My seer gifting began with hearing in the Spirit. For as long as I can remember I have heard things that I knew or sensed were not from this earth or the temporal realm as it is referred to in the bible. (2 Cor 4:18) Unfortunately what I heard was never very pleasant and was often scary.
Seeing in the Spirit throughout my young life was not a major feature. My first experience with seeing in the Spirit came through my daughter. When she was young she could see in the Spirit and would tell me what she would see some were lovely, others not so great. She could also see lights in front of her eyes for years, which I believe were angels. Unfortunately, I did not have much experience or knowledge in these things and so her gift faded because she struggled with what she was seeing and we thought it best that she try to ignore them. Coming from a conservative traditional Christian background and upbringing, I had no idea what they were and back then thought they were mostly from the Devil.
My first experience of seeing in the spirit through my natural eyes was not a great one. I was in my mid 20’s and going through a difficult time. Through this difficult time I made an inner vow and opened myself up to a demon. (At the time I was completely ignorant of the dangers of inner vows and how they open you up to the demonic. So my first experience was a frightening one. I was very scared and worried; this black swirling thing would hover around me, as I had no reference for it whatsoever. I went to an eye doctor, a homeopath and my GP who offered anti-anxiety medication. My initial thought was demon but, after that it was just complete denial, hence the myriad of doctor and healthcare practitioner visits. I was in complete denial and had no idea who on earth could help me, even if I did acknowledge what my spirit was telling me. You might ask how I could be in denial about seeing a demon but to me the demon had manifested itself as a black swirling circle and it was only through the mercy of Holy Spirit that I was able to see it for what it truly was, even though that took years. Over the years the sighting of it diminished, as the power of denial is enormously strong. After my eyes had been opened I would occasionally see and hear other demons as well.
It was about the same time that I began to see angels although I did not know that that is what they were as they did not look like the human formed winged type. (I have since learned that angels come in many shapes, sizes and types.) Instead, they were like large, powerful, solemn columns of white misty pillars. I could sense their power and strength and solemnity is the only way I can describe them. It was reverence. But since I had no reference for any of this I was afraid when I saw these around my room at night. The demon (black swirling circle) I later discovered was a spirit of infirmity and as a result of denial and ignorance my children were frequently very sick with bizarre and unusual illnesses and afflicted by accidents.
I am a naturopath (a healthcare professional who uses natural medicine to heal disease) and during my years of training I became tainted and infected by some of the things that I saw and learned, as a result of this and other unrepented sins, demons started to attack me at night when I was asleep. As the years went by it got worse and worse until they began to manifest before me to frighten and intimidate me.
I had no idea what to do but would plead the blood of Jesus and tell them to go, however it was all very ineffective. My daughter was also hearing things in the spirit more frequently and so I started asking God for a place I could go to get help, as the church I had grown up in was not a place I could turn to for help.
Even though I had been a Christian my whole life I had no idea who I was in Christ and did not have an intimate relationship with Him and therefore had little authority and a lot of fear. Once I started at the church God directed me too, the attacks got worse but I knew that I was going to the right place.
It was here where I first began to sense angels, although I did not know initially what it was. Not long after going to my new church a particularly troublesome demon manifested in my room. I start to plead the blood of Jesus etc and then suddenly so clearly I heard Holy Spirit (whom I did not know very well at the time, again due to my conservative traditional christian upbringing) say “rebuke it!” So I did in the name of Jesus and it vanished so quickly I could not believe my eyes. Fortunately, by regularly attending my new church, which at the time was going through amazing growth, with many angelic beings present each week and amazing alter calls where healing abounded, I had many sovereign deliverances.
These deliverances were also because I was water baptised which completely changed my life. I would awake in the morning after service and a demon would be trying to re-enter as it had been booted out of its home and I would rebuke it in Jesus name and it would not come back. There was one particularly persistent one, a spirit of jealously but in the end it had to bow to the power of the wonderful name of Jesus (Yeshua) and thus began my journey to wholeness.
Not long after I was baptised in the Spirit and that is when I really started to see more clearly in the Spirit as I yielded my life more and more to Jesus (Yeshua) and His Spirit.
One night I experienced the craziest thing. I awoke to see a demon hovering above me, in the spirit I could hear the sound of wailing and the sound of tribal drums and rattling, it felt like my bed was shaking. I felt angels lift me up and this surge of power and peace ran through me. I had to that spirit and the seven more evil demons it had brought with it and they all left. I was so totally amazed by that experience and the power of God. I was not even afraid, but I knew it wasn’t me it was God’s strength that made me capable of that.
Luke 11: 24-26 NIV “When an impure spirit comes out of a person, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, ‘I will return to the house I left. When it arrives, it finds the house swept clean and put in order.
Then it goes and takes seven other spirits wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that person is worse than the first.”
In my experience when you’re delivered from demons they usually try to come back and that is when the fight really begins. It was the same with the spirit of infirmity. That deliverance is an amazing testimony in and of itself but I will briefly describe it here.
Holy Spirit, (whom by this time I had began to develop a closer relationship with) showed me through reading the bible and a series of books that he led me to read, that I had a demon, that in itself was a horrible dawning realisation but also that it was one that would only come out with prayer and fasting. He showed me this by allowing me to battle with that thing for 2 hours (with two angels by my side) and nothing happened it did not budge, I was so exhausted I gave up, but that is when I started seeking Him for why and He showed me the scripture in Mark 9:29 see also Mathew 17:21. My fast, as led by Holy Spirit was an amazing three days whereby Jesus and Holy Spirit led me through fasting and preparing for deliverance and helping me through the intimidation as the spirit of infirmity became aware of what I was doing. However, the point I guess I began with is that they go, it’s easy to get free but it’s keeping your freedom that is the real battle. After I was delivered I had one night of pure freedom but on the second night, it came back and when I told it to go it actually had the rude audacity to say no. It tried to intimidate me, but thanks be to the grace of God I stood my ground and Holy Spirit helped me through, it harassed me for some time and was still often able to affect my children but not to the same degree and over the weeks I watched it get smaller and smaller. It realised over time that it feds on anger and if I had an unrighteous angry moment I would see it come back, but I just rebuke it now and it goes. It was not very happy about leaving its home of fifteen years. It might sound bad or not worth the bother but I assure you it is always worth the battle to be truly free in Christ, to have God’s blessing and favour freely flowing through you unhindered. Not to mention the terrible sicknesses it placed upon each of my children whilst it had a legal right to my life.
Since that time in my growing walk with Jesus (Yeshua) I have grown in my seer gifting, have read many books and studied many course on deliverance and healing all directed of course by our great comforter and teacher Holy Spirit. And so I am on a journey as I am sure are you, a great race actually, where the finish line and greatest prize is Jesus, (Yeshua) my inheritance. I pray I finish well and walk in the will of my Heavenly Father and help a few people along the way.
V.Tripodi